Man I need to be done with this Katie bullshit. I made reservations for dinner this weekend at a nice restaurant and she comes up with some indifferent bullshit about not having to be anything expensive. I don’t know what makes her think I just want to catchup on things over dinner. We could have done that over the phone, better yet, not at all. So that’s what I told her. I’m done. Here is how the text messages went:

Antonio: Are u free sat At 7?
Katie: At 8
Antonio: I made 8:30 reservation at ruth chris downtown
Katie: What! No that is too much

I tried calling her but she didn’t answer…

Katie: Im at work
Antonio: What do u want?
Katie:Dont care but dont feel like u have to take me somewhere super nice
Antonio: I do it cause I want to. if you’re having second thoughts or whatever just let me know
Katie: Second thoughts? Arent we going to catch up on things n enjoy the company?
Antonio: Yeah. i still feel for u. This is not a good idea
Katie: Yeah i think u r right
Antonio: Its better if you don’t call me again. I’m not settling for friends.
Katie: Ok its sad u feel that way i will respect that tho

End of text messages.

To me. She has stopped being herself and is now caught up trying to be like everyone else. From the last times I’ve talked to her she is even trying to change the way she talks. Trying to sound like she can’t move her tongue or some shit, sounding dumb when she know better. I’m just doing my own thing now. I don’t need to be bothered with this and it might be a while till I find someone I like at a deeper level. Whatever, women don’t lack in my life but I need to get to that point where I want to really start dating again. It could be tomorrow, who knows.

Tags: Antonio, Bullen, bullshit, catchup, doing my own thing, friends katie, nice restaurant, ruth chris, second ughts, text messages, tho, tongue