I cannot complain about anything. The shit that happens in my life are always followed by good things. There are ups and downs happening all the time and I know how to work everything work for me. Ride the good times and learn from the bad ones. In the end, it’s all about what I make out of the situation.

A couple of days ago I was sitting down thinking about opportunities, and I was thinking that for the people that know how to spot opportunities and make them work for themselves, there are no bad days. When I get into deep shit, as serious as the problem might be at the moment, I know that when I get out of it I would have learned something new. Now if I only had more discipline go with that…

I finished all my classes this semester with no problems. I received 260 hours of community service and I’m working on the last 220, even though that means there won’t be a brake between semesters. Insight Society is up and running and I’m in the middle of planning the activities for next semester. My family will be in Panama for Christmas and this week I’ve been talking to a girl that makes me lose my cool… I like it.

I meet a lot of random people. Shaking hands and giving kiss on cheeks is probably how I’ll get sick again. I’ve got rent money, a dream (like always), and slowly but surely everything seems to line up in front of me.

I friend with his successful coffee business made me think about Bullen Tea again. I’m thinking I’m starting to feel a bit tired of chasing my dreams, but it’s impossible to stop. I don’t think I’ll ever know how to live without trying to be better.

People see me as a happy person. 14 years ago, nobody would have said that. 20 years ago I was a very lonely child… I will never forget the emotional pain and how hard it was to go from wanting to belong somewhere to understanding that I should be able to stand on my own two feet at all times.

The idea of getting married scares me still, and I think I’m far from it, but I do wish I had a steady girl in my life. It’s been a while since I shared my bed with a girl and felt comfortable doing it. I want the feeling of getting to know somebody really well. I want to surprise her with flowers. I want to lay in bed, watch t.v. and eat pizza while I carefully study every inch of her body. I want to wake up on Sundays and be surprised with breakfast. I want everything I don’t have right now, and when I do get it, I still want to feel free. I want the girl I’ve been thinking about for the past week to be mine.